This is an old poem I am publishing here for archival purposes. It was never updated until now. I believe I wrote it circa 2001.
Does God forgive
before the Self is forgiven?
Sins remain until Thought is gone
Moments pass delicately while
I blindly cling to what was and
I turn deaf ears to the future.
My children ohave been wronged and
have forgiven me unconditionally.
The earth has been scarred by me and
still it supports my weight.
I have cried out against the winds of time
yet they continue to gently steer my course.
I have pissed in the waters of life
still they quench my thirst.
I have smothered flames of passion
yet passion roars within me now.
Friends have been pushed away and
still friendships are born anew.
God has forgiven a thousand times.
I have not forgiven once.